Call Me a Coward

By Heskey Dzeng

I moved all around Equatoria, Upper Nile and Bahr el Ghazal regions

Hunting down really [an] enemy but not brother and sister [s]

I seen scores of corpses a years ago

As some died on my hand and others at encounter field

So that is enough; my eyes is suit

I cannot take gun at more

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Just call me a coward

My friends, colleagues and relatives were killed just to liberated you and I

And they did it, their blood cemented this Country, yep we got freedom two years ago

Now, I do not have friend, colleague and relative [s] to be kill again for sake of money and leadership and corruption

And I do not want to aim my gun on them

Just call me coward

I am not coward, but cowardice for love of lives

Desire for peace and stability

I do not want to be murderer/killer

I want to die in peace like my late dad and mum

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Just call me coward

I am big, brave, heavy weighed man with 120 kg, I can lug RPG, hefty artillery like twelve and Ak47 all at one on my shoulder

I can even wrestle down Michael Sean, world super-power wrestler within second

I cannot even talk about Majok Jokriir [Jonglei] and Jeda [Equatoria], famous giant wrestler in South Sudan

I can bring trophy to South Sudan

Not trophy of bloodshed but trophy of peace

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Just call me a coward

I will not put on woman’s cloth

But remain as M or what you think

I will take refuge with woman, my wife and children

Soon I will desert you to butcher your tomorrow brother

And my wife would not get annoy, although women harrying at me

Coz she is mother of nation, mother of peace, not mother of bloodshed like your wife

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You can call me coward or woman but she will call real man

Simply I fought for freedom and I have won it

I have humanity; I am not fiend and bloodthirsty

I do not want to renew my life/soul with innocent bloods like Macharist, Peter Gatdet Yaak and Kiirist and more otherists

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Just call me coward

Though you call me woman, coward, stupid man, hyena and mores as you wish

It cannot needle me to take arm but vigor

And I will laugh at you

I do not care

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Just call me a coward

And if you give me a gun by force

I can shot you first

Then burn it

I just want peace and co-existence

Just call me a coward

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Heskey Dzeng @2014

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