By Heskey Dzeng
I moved all around Equatoria, Upper Nile and Bahr el Ghazal regions
Hunting down really [an] enemy but not brother and sister [s]
I seen scores of corpses a years ago
As some died on my hand and others at encounter field
So that is enough; my eyes is suit
I cannot take gun at more
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Just call me a coward
My friends, colleagues and relatives were killed just to liberated you and I
And they did it, their blood cemented this Country, yep we got freedom two years ago
Now, I do not have friend, colleague and relative [s] to be kill again for sake of money and leadership and corruption
And I do not want to aim my gun on them
Just call me coward
I am not coward, but cowardice for love of lives
Desire for peace and stability
I do not want to be murderer/killer
I want to die in peace like my late dad and mum
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Just call me coward
I am big, brave, heavy weighed man with 120 kg, I can lug RPG, hefty artillery like twelve and Ak47 all at one on my shoulder
I can even wrestle down Michael Sean, world super-power wrestler within second
I cannot even talk about Majok Jokriir [Jonglei] and Jeda [Equatoria], famous giant wrestler in South Sudan
I can bring trophy to South Sudan
Not trophy of bloodshed but trophy of peace
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Just call me a coward
I will not put on woman’s cloth
But remain as M or what you think
I will take refuge with woman, my wife and children
Soon I will desert you to butcher your tomorrow brother
And my wife would not get annoy, although women harrying at me
Coz she is mother of nation, mother of peace, not mother of bloodshed like your wife
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You can call me coward or woman but she will call real man
Simply I fought for freedom and I have won it
I have humanity; I am not fiend and bloodthirsty
I do not want to renew my life/soul with innocent bloods like Macharist, Peter Gatdet Yaak and Kiirist and more otherists
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Just call me coward
Though you call me woman, coward, stupid man, hyena and mores as you wish
It cannot needle me to take arm but vigor
And I will laugh at you
I do not care
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Just call me a coward
And if you give me a gun by force
I can shot you first
Then burn it
I just want peace and co-existence
Just call me a coward
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Heskey Dzeng @2014