WE REMAIN BUNCH OF LOSERS.
6 min readPLEASE DON’T SHOULDER IT TO KIIR? YOU WRONGED! I WRONGED! WE WRONGED TOO!!
By Amer Mayen Dhieu
You and I have heard/read our transitional constitution, and we both knew something was wrong. 95% of the powers were given to the president by the damn constitution. You sit, I sit, we sit, idly knowing that it’s Authoritarianism in the making, not democracy. I think you and I were wrong for not protesting.
Constitution was pass on to parliament for approval, sadly you swallow your balls, I don’t have balls. Without questioning, you approved it, I approved it, we approved the “power authoritarian” constitutions. For this reason, You wronged, I wronged, We wronged!
The constitution was approved, so was Kiir’s powers. His very famous strategic saying was also approved (“by the powers given to me by Article….by the powers conferred upon me by….I decreed”). You were like what the hell is Decree? I was asking the same too. When watching SSTV I choose to focus on the lady doing the sign language because I don’t want to hear the next “Decree” the news reporter will read. That’s what I do to convey my hatred of what he’s doing, don’t know what you do. See! You wronged, I wronged, We wronged!
You know, I know, We know, that the “decree” will one day shock both of us. You, me, we and him. I was shock, don’t know whether you were when he sacked Governor Taban Deng Gai (remember this was before there was a coup vs no coup saga). I ask in my private room, don’t know what you did. Why would a democratically, constitutionally and legitimately elected president sack the democratically, constitutionally and legitimately elected governor we vote for?? I choose my governor he chooses his cabinet. As citizens, what else can we independently do without presidential interference? Not even making sure that our heart-chosen governor stays in power. I think I was wrong, you were wrong, we were wrong, for not speaking up sooner enough!
On the date I can’t remember, You and I and We, heard/watch him reshuffling the cabinet before the term ended. You knew what the consequences will be, I knew too, Mr president knew nothing. Another unprofessional thing was done. A very dangerous Vice president was sacked and let loose. No word was heard from me and you and we. You wronged, I wronged, we wronged!
East African national language say; “siku ya mwizi ni arobaini.” I don’t know what the hell that mean but in my concept, thief days are numbered, so are Mr President days. Sadly your days, my days, our days, too. His government started to shake. Fear of the government’s shaking hit you and me and we in the face, eyes, ears and body. SPLM Party was divided down the middle; Anti-Garang/Garang Orphan/Boys/Gals vs Opportunists. The general public was divided too. Ex-ministers vs current ministers, Dinka vs Nueer, Bor vs Twic East and Dukeen. Bahr el Ghazal region vs Greater Bor region, and you Vs me, and we vs them. You were wrong, I was Wrong, We were wrong, Mr. was wrong too!
Division fever hit Mr president in the heart. He decided to have his own presidential army/guards formerly trained as “Gelweng” later transformed into “Gelbeny”. It also hit you and I and we in the heart. You airlifted your family to a safer place and started propagandists’ campaigning to either bring you closer to Mr President or distance you from him. Because am poor I did nothing to save my family but I start posting about the situation. Both of us were wrong.
On December 15 the insecurities hit Mr president on the brain not in the heart as usual. As reported by few sources, By his powers he ordered general disarmament within his “Gelbeny” forces. And later re-armed his well-trusted men (Dinkas). This time it wasn’t again three of us that felt insecure. It was also the poor soldiers left unarm. There were uncertainties all over the places. You lock yourself up in your house surrounded by your guards and so was Mr President, I was left shattered, thinking of the safety of my poor family.
Finaly the “Forty day” was here. Unarmed men try to rearmed themselves by force. The violence erupted. Nuers men, women and Children where targeted. Reportly being slaughtered like animals. With a door to door search in Juba suburbs haunting for more Nuers’ Citizens. While Nueer’s massacre was ongoing, you and I and we decided to keep quit, never reported anything on the ground. You have pictures for evidence. You refused to download them. I heard the same story. I failed to write about it. Mama Nyandeng grew balls and reported it to BBC. She ended up being branded as “Sudan Gedim’s prostitute, inherit by Riek. She was misconceived as disgraced to her husband’ s Legacy. Mabior, her son was associated with monkey, not her child but Mundary. Her County Twic East and her county Neighbours Dukeen were called “Rebels”.
General Gadet Yaak heard the same Juba evil practice. His evil mind urge him to do the same. He shot his assistant. ” historical National hero Ajak Yen.” You and I and we did nothing to help. I was shivering in fear of losing my love ones. Violent erupted in Paan-Pandiar military Barack. In a twinkle of an eye it escalated to civilians occupied suburbs in Bortown. You and I and We were busy on the media talking of Nyandeng, Mr president was busy dressing himself with Miltary uniform, and making announcement of “attempted Coup” and ordering arrest warranty for Coup suspects. His Dangerous relieved ex-vice president run for his life and later take charge of the rebellion.
I was helpless, hopeless, desperate you name it. All those emotions were taking charge of me. The news of the decease spread on social media. Some sending me condolences of people I never knew were dead. You were busy saying/writing provoking status and statements on medias. I was doing the same too. NUEER ganged up to revenged. White army was re-activated in less than a week. Result in Second time “Bor Massacre”. Mr president declared state of emergency in Jonglei and Unity states. You evacuated rest of your relatives to better cities. I struggle sending my family back to the refugees camp they brought me up. Nothing can change what we both contributed in their untold suffering. You wronged, I wronged, We wronged!
Mr president started it unknowingly. You and I and We knew it but refused to speak up. You took Mr President’s side. I took my own side. Riek and his rebellion took sides, conflict took your side, my side, RIEK’ side and Mr. president side. CONFLICT WON, WE LOSED. WE REMAINED BUNCH OF LOSERS.
AMER@ 2014.
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well said “WE REMAINED BUNCH OF LOSERS”. i understand your pain completely from this statement “I struggle sending my family back to the refugees camp they brought me up. Nothing can change what we both contributed in their untold suffering”. we are all victims in our own country.